If You Don't Know...Now Ya Know..

Recently I've been trying to figure out "who I am" and "what kind of person I am" and "what kind of man I am into" etc etc etc... so here is random stream of consciousness about my likes and dislikes that can maybe begin to breach the surface of me:

My name is Katherine Leigh.  I am 22 years old. Born in Brandon, Fl on May 24, 1988. My first kiss was Eric Grooters on New Years at the stroke of Midnight in 8th grade (beat that!!).  I love to shop.  But I hate shopping for jeans, bras and bathing suits.  Anyone who thinks those are fun to shop for, please feel free to tell me your secret. The best way for me to relax is to watch mindless / trashy tv, drink wine (or other adult beves) and laugh with friends.  When I'm alone, my favorite thing to do is put music on, take a bubble bath, sing terribly and loudly, and walk around the house naked. I've never had a one night stand and don't really intend on it.  My favorite hobby is to go out to dinner with my friends / family (if that can be considered a hobby).  I'm extremely romantic. Yes, all that mushy gushy crap works on me.  No boyfriend of mine has ever been romantic.. this is part of the reason why I'm single.  I love kissing. I've slept in the nude many, many times. My favorite midnight snack is frozen pizza (side note: favorite toppings -- bacon and pepperoni and pineapple in any combination) or waffle house (especially after an epic night of drinking).  If I could do it again, I'd change a lot of things from college... especially the amount I partied. I'd do it more. I graduated with a 3.74 from college and could have had a little more fun instead of having my nose in the books all the time.  I'd also take the time to get to know more people more personally.  No one really gives a crap about other people in college and I wish I had. Girls were so mean to be in college.  Ive never had anyone treat me as badly as some of the girls i've met over the past few years. When I eat peanut butter and fluff or peanut butter and jelly sandwiches I absolutely must have some cheesy doritos to go with.  I will never ever give up fried chicken or macaroni and cheese. ever.  My favorite drink is Dr. Pepper.  If I never saw / smelled any food that comes from the ocean again I'd be perfectly content.  My "ideal" date would be to have a ridiculously romantic something or another. I have been in love with 2 people at the same time.  I have also dated someone I didn't love for months and never told them I didn't love them..  Id go to the beach any day over the mountains. Except I hate it when sand gets in my butt. You know that happens to you too! If I had a super power I think I'd want to be able to read peoples minds when I wanted to. Not all the time because that's creepy... but just when it's important to know if someone is really telling you the truth. (ex: did you make out with that girl, yes or no?) TOO many people lie to me and quite frankly, I'm over it. Either tell me the truth and I'll deal with it, or don't be my friend.  I've been hurt by a lot of people for no apparent reason.  If I could do anything I wanted to do, it would be to meet my perfect man... or just know who that perfect man is in my life-- who knows I could have already met him, right? That'd be sweet. The worst thing a boyfriend / guy ever said to me was that "when he meets the perfect girl, he'll know" meaning... I am not that girl. ouch, right?!  I don't like large crowds. Let's face it. I'm short and when I'm in the middle of a large crowd, it gets overwhelming not being able to see anything except people's back and stomachs.  I'm a people pleaser and I'll go to the end of the earth for you if you simply tell me that it meant a lot for me to do that for you. Seriously, that's all it takes- gratitude.  If I could get plastic surgery I would have my double chin sucked out. It's gross and unattractive and no matter how much weight I lose, I will always have one.  I used to play the flute and the oboe and the piano.  Now, I can't even read music.  The sexiest part of a male body to me is the shoulders and back. mmmm. yep. The sexiest part of a female body is the hour glass figure.   My biggest fear is losing someone close to me without telling them how much they mean to me or how much I appreciate everything they have done for me.  I have 7 ear piercings and used to have my nose pierced.  I want a tattoo of the Christian fish on my foot and have wanted it since I was 16. The best advise I ever got was to live in THIS moment.  I'm trying to not be as obsessed with my cell phone as I used to be.  It's ok if someone has to wait a few more minutes for me to respond to their text message if I'm busy with someone. I try to pretend like I'm good at cooking when all I really know how to do is follow a recipe and throw shit together that I think might taste good.  It usually doesn't.  I'm scared about growing up. My biggest pet peeve is when people don't follow through on what they say they will do.  I love long names.  I sincerely want to name my first daughter Charlotte Elizabeth and call her "Charlie". Not being able to have children really scares me.  I don't like dogs, except for a very select few.  No, I do not want to see pictures of your dog and no I do not want to pet it or have it lay on me or slober on me. k?thanks. I've always wanted to know a foreign language but do not think I have the mental capacity to learn one. I just dont understand that shit. what are you saying to me?!?! I have the. worlds. best. family. I like costume parties but I dont like walking in to the party. I feel like a douche dressed like that. One day I hope to own my own something. anything of real value. I have a real fear of my house burning down and have had multiple dreams about it happening. I don't have patience for people's children in public. Please keep them under control and no, I'm not meaning for you to keep them on a lease with a bear shaped back-pack to disguise it.   My least favorite subject in school was math...no english.. no wait it was science.. i mean history... oh yea.. i hated all subjects in school except home-ec. guess I majored in the right thing? I used to be "super Catholic" but I have fallen away from the church.  Not intentionally..I can't really describe why or what happened. It just did. I'm trying to get back into it though.  I know my life was more together and better with God in my life / mind regularly so I'm making small steps to get it together. I only have 2 secrets that very few people know about me and I probably won't ever tell anyone else unless prompted.  My favorite time of year is all year long.  I love the winter because of the clothes, I love fall because of the smell and the leaves and the perfect temperature outside. I love the spring because of the flowers and I love summer because of the nostalgia.  On my wedding day, I hope to have my father walk me down the aisle to Pachabel's Canon in D.  Also, I'd like to have that really cool version of Some Where Over the Rainbow played at some point. Yes, I like that song.. a lot. When I was little I had an imaginary friend named Zoey. She was the bomb.com. My socks almost always never match and yes, I started that trend not on purpose but out of laziness to find two matching ones. I will listen to almost any kind of music, however, never ever ask me who sings it because I don't know. I dont' know anything about sports and I really don't intend on trying to learn.  Also, I dont know anything about politics.  I have never voted because I dont know enough about what's going on to make a knowledge based decision and I'm not really one for blindly voting for the sake of voting.  I don't have that many girlfriends.  Not for the lack of trying, but for some reason, I always just get pushed aside. I'm always the "third wheel" in friendships. So, to try and fix that I'm trying a more one-on-one approach or a large group setting.  I really want to be asked out on a real date. and soon! I know I'm still not over my ex boyfriend, but yet I know he's not meant to be with me. Not sure if that's normal. Getting dolled up is still one of my favorite things to do.  Being a princess is definitely one of my childhood fantasies.  I'm a hypochondriac and I always think I have some sort of illness.  I'm self conscious of my body hair. Is that weird? yes. oh well. My favorite color is pink and navy blue. My best summer is tied.  One was my two weeks in Costa Rica studying abroad. The other: spending the entire summer at our family's cabin with just my siblings and close family friends doing nothing for weeks. Compromising is one of my biggest relationship needs.  If you can't compromise with me on stuff, then...well... we've got some issues. It's called give and take, people! I've give up every dollar I ever make to have a life of pure happiness. I don't like confrontation and getting yelled at makes me cry. every time. Going to the dentist isn't scary when you take care of your teeth. Going to the gynecologist is one of the most humiliating experiences. (guys... please, get over the one touch ball turn and cough... it's nothing comparatively speaking)  I think I will really enjoy being pregnant and i'm looking forward to the day when I can celebrate a pregnancy. I love animal print clothes, shoes, and jewelry.  The most I've ever won from the lottery was $50 (unlike my brother). Life motto: remember, things can always always get worse. so be grateful for what you have when you have it.

Laugh when you can. Apologize when you should.  Let go of what you can't change. Kiss slowly, Play hard. Enjoy moments.  Forgive quickly.  Take chances. Give everything. Have no regrets.  Life is too short to be anything but HAPPY.